Sometimes.....

Have you ever been to that place where you feel like you've hit whatever wall there is out there to hit? A place like at the end of that movie 'The Truman Show' where his boat just rams right into the wall that he thought for sure was the beautiful sky off in the far away distance. There he was just sailing right along, a big grin on his face thinking 'man I've finally made it, I've finally fought my demons and won.' Then.....

BLAM!!!! Into the wall he goes. What does he do? He sits for a moment breaking down at the pain of what his life has been, wondering what to do next, wondering if life is worth living, if he should go on, if this is all there is. And then he moves forward, wipes the tears from his eyes & struggling he gets off of his boat & he walks along the crease between the water and the sky (his thoughts and his emotions) on the horizon and he comes to a stairway that had once been invisible, a stairway that almost seems as if it were a stairway to heaven.

What happens next? He hears a voice speak his name, a voice that is encouraging him not to give up but on what? His quest to find himself, his quest to move forward, his quest to grow to the next level, his quest to see what lies beyond the doorway?.. No! A voice that tells him not to give up on keeping the dull, boring, stepford, unsatisfactory life he has led all these years, a voice that asks him to stick it out in a place that is nothing but easy for the singular reason that it is .... Easy.

Because you never know what is on the other side do you? That's the trick - should I stay or should I go? That is the question.... To be or not to be. So what do you choose? Do you listen to that voice convincing yourself it is God your father asking you to remain in the muck and the mire? Or do you choose to recognize the little squeak that is your own inner voice, the voice that was there with God before you were made in the flesh, the voice that is the truest essence of what you really are, the voice that if listened to & recognized will become it's own angelic choir calling like a siren for all to hear and follow... See me-Feel me-Love me-Know me I AM HERE!

Right here, right now - make a choice to move forward, through the fear, through the pain, through the loneliness and into something more. Sure it's scary, sure it's hard but can it really be worse than what you've just gone through? I don't think so. I don't think it can - I think that however difficult each moment may seem it is better than the last if you are consciously working to better yourself - if you like Truman have kept your imagination, your hope, your thirst for the truth, for the great unknown, for your quest to find the truest essence of your Self.

So what is your choice? Will you sit crying in the boat under the realization of the fact that your world has ended or will you walk on water (above your emotions) and up the stairway to heaven through darkness of fear and into a new world that is really yours? The choice is yours - I hope to see you there.

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